Excuse the profanity but honestly, I just wanted you to know that I always loved you and I still do. Don't tell me I don't, cuz all I'll do is cry in frustration because I can't prove it anymore. I went and got help cuz I needed it, and I wanted to heal myself to heal the friendship. Again, friendship. That was the only thing I saw was possible at that point. And that's all I wanted. Then I don't know where you went. I was straight up empty, so I went back for more help.